to good to leave for storage..

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 02:08:40 GMT

>>A- Age you got your first kiss-- 13..is that too young?
>>B- Band you last listened too-- One Man Army
>>C- Crush-- its a secret!
>>D- Dad's name- walter
>>E- Easiest person to talk to-- myself
>>F- Favorite band(s) at the moment-- postal service, antiflag, one man army, the breifs, lass than jake....a lot.
>>G- Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms-- gummy worms for sure!
>>H- Hometown-- Miami
>>I- Instrument(s)-- you.
>>J- Just name a really good friend-- id love to.
>>K- Kids-- OH GOD NO! theyre uber annoying!
>>L- Longest Car ride ever-- 5-6 hours going to tampa
>>M- Mom's name-- nitza....cool name right
>>O- One Wish-- to be truely happy even if for a moment and remember it....world peace^.^
>>P- Phobia(s)-- dark, heights, narrow spaces
>>Q- Quote-- "PARTY ALL NIGHT. SLEEP ALL DAY. NEVER GET OLD. NEVER DIE"
>>R- Reason to smile-- having someone listen to me and truely love me.
>>S- Song you last sang-- i made it up!
>>T- Time you woke up (today)-- i dunno.
>>U- Unknown things that no one else knows-- this is emo: im suicidal. i can't make the spoon stay on my nose!
>>V- Vegetable(s) you hate-- hmm..snow peas...tomatoes...a few but i generally love em
>>W- Worst habit(s)-- cutting myself, taking too long in the shower hitting people, snorting, over analizing
>>X- X-rays you've ever had-- do not know
>>Y- Yummy food-- CHACOLATE MILK!
>>Z- Zodiac Sign-- aquarious.....every one know thats the best one out there right?!

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 01:53:03 GMT

number of times i have been in love: 3 two have ended
number of hearts i have broken: too many
number of boys i have kissed in my life: 10-15
number of girls i have kissed: my mommy ^.^
number of continents i have visited: 1
number of drugs taken illegally: the types? im not tellin ^.^..3
number of people i would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: no one. <-thats is emo
number of people from high school that i stayed in contact with: still there, you fool!
number of cd's that i own: too many
number of piercings: ears baby ! *points to ears*
number of tattoos: 0
number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 3 if you count school news papers ^.^
number of scars on my body: not enough
number of scars on my heart: a lot....
number of people that have made me scared of what they could do to me physically: 1
number of things in my past that i regret:
a lot presumably...i dunno
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When was the last time you...
Smiled?: hour ago
Laughed?: yesterday.
Cried?: last night
Bought something?: today..i got wood ^.^
Danced?: .....I kinda did yesterday...
Were sarcastic?: im not too sarcastic....
Kissed someone?: yesterday..^. i love you dougy!
Talked to an ex?: today.. what an emo jerk
Watched your favorite movie?: you mean the one of you in the shower?....
Had a nightmare?: does having a dream about your mom eating YOUR cereal count?

A last time for everything...
Last book you read: Coercion: why we do what "they" say
Last movie you saw: your mom!
Last song you heard: the theme song of zeld ^.^
Last thing you had to drink: coke
Last time you showered: ....I need one...yesterday or sunday
Last thing you ate: egg roll

Do you...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Have sex?: yes
Sleep with stuffed animals?: sometimes
Live in the moment?: most of the time
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes my true love dougy ^.^
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes...they all do
Play an instrument?: does whistleing count?
Believe there is life on other planets?: yes
Remember your first love?: *tries not to remember* yeah, I do...
Still love him/her?: he turned out to be gay and went to another school...
Read the newspaper?: online.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes ^.^
Believe in miracles?: i believe one when i see one..
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes..and any one who answered no should just die!
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: ofcourse
Consider love a mistake?: I regret a lot of things, but a mistake? No...
Like the taste of alcohol?: no.. its really icky!
Have a favorite candy?: nerds
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: only if you do.
Believe in God?: ______
Pray?: sometimes
Go to church?: no
Have any secrets?: of course *hordes them into a deep dark place*
Have any pets: ...*counts* 2
Do well in school?: i'll plead the 5th!
Go to or plan to go to college?: why not?
Have a major?: not yet
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: all the time ^.^
Wear hats?: my green care bear hat ^.^ *shes wearing it now*
Have any piercings?: hey i thought you asked this already..
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself?: I wouldn't say hate, strongly dislike?
Have an obsession?: ...what do you mean by "obsession"?
Have a secret crush?: a few
Do they know yet?: no
Collect anything?: miniature porcelain shoes
Have a best friend?:i used to but now hes an emo jerk !
Wish on stars?: all the time *.*
Like your handwriting?: it deserves to burn
Have any bad habits?: a few
Care about looks?: im not gonna lie..yes
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: i'll give him suggestion but hes good looking so it don't matter what he wears....he looks better with out clothes
Believe in witches?: hey, anything is possible
Believe in Satan?: theres gotta be one.....didn't you see constantine?
Believe in ghosts?: hell yeah !

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 01:00:53 GMT

hello
!i really
kinda nervous about tommorow! im going to the military ball! WEE! yay and dougy is gonna look so hot in his suit i could just do him right there on the dance floor! but we must be respectful and keep our hands to our selves! i'll keep my hand some where else! (hint:its not in his hand!)
BAH! you all upset me so..i come here to find that i am UNLOVED! will any one love me?..how about you..?

i could give you a treat if you know how to beg right ^.-

MAXY! i wanna lick your facey!!!! FACE!

FFFFFFFF U U CCCCCCCC K K YOU!
F U U C K K
F U U C K K
FFFFFF U U C KK CLEARLY I HAVE TOO MUCH TIME ON MY HANDS!
F U U C K K
F U U C K K
F U U C K K
F U U U CCCCCCCC K K

hello though no one cares

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 13:26:24 GMT

Horrors of all horrors!!! RvB is down so my journaling is to be done...here..

im reading abook about how the CIA and car dealers are connected by how they get you to confess...or sign a contract....they start out bypretending they care and will show this (in car dealers) by maybe saying "you don't want to buy that car" that make you think "hmmm he must really care if he's trying to get me a good car".....

after this false sense of comfort...they try to make you see that he is the only other thing that you can have compasion for because the car dealership place is always very (only the offices)tiny and has no windows...

this makes you revert to a child like state..or rather it starts that way.....then come the big boom!...

they ask.."is this a car you could see youreself driving". at that moment you are completely blank becuase you are no longer in the test drive..you are watching youre self drive the car.....

now that you are into a childlike state (that means that you are dependant on other for a desicion)...the car dealler may give you coffee wethr you like it or not so that he is assuming control ot "parent like leadership".......that how it all goes down..and then you sign....

the buildings fell to rubble

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 17:00:18 GMT

i went after you....why won't you try to catch me. i don't like one way streets.

Masochism

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 16:46:46 GMT

she held the plastic handle that hel the delicate instrumentat the end. It was a razora new one at that.at first she just crated a puncture woundinicating the staring point of this 'self-inflicted' ecxtay. she had known only too many people who scraped the razor across their skin quickley, carelessly, and not enjoy the symbolism of the cells dying, or of the coolness you feel from the metal. No, ahe was s,arter, this wasn't a race, it wasn't punishment, it was for calm, serenity, and above all knowledge. The cells broke and seperated, died, and let space for a new life to come and spill around the ound, blood. all too abruptlyit stopped. the ecxtasy stopped. the skin was left pink around her ankle and swollen like a mini mountain range. that was it, just one, it was good. she wanted some more please.......

janury 27, 2005 11: 10

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 17:02:57 GMT

there is nothing the the world that can'r be broken absoltly nothing...i wish there was and if then what would it be.. as for now i through a process of gather facts and observations am able to more adiquitly realize the world around me and its purpose. humans i have come to truely beleive are the highest form of evolution, while i know almost every one agrees with this i know that there is a minority of who does not. given that conclusion i am able to beleive that lies and humans are connected. lies are and intricate system that requires previous thinking to be done properly wihle i am not sure if other forms of life have the capabilities to lie it is possible that they might but at a lower form and complexity. if you can do complex things you must be a complex species.....the end.. well just for now actually ^.^

e muja oui rahno ^.^ <3

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 01:39:24 GMT

i wish every one would stop worrying about what other people think or the fact that other people exist.. youve gotta get out there and actually experience life.. reading about it isn't the same. and as for all you snobby punkers with your no future attitudes.. living life doesn't mean being completely rambuncious. i like a little order becuase you can get some of youre justice..although i have stopped pledgig to flag but i stand tall with my arms at the sides respectfully..i thought about it and said wait.. whats happening here this "pledge" is liek a coltish thing a mean i don't always get my justice nor does every one have this "freedom"it just so happens we are devisable and well im agnostic stupid government could have stopped so many things from happening personal and world wide.
thats not the point point is please just ignore the other people live life...LIVE life apreciate youth and just have youre wildest days.. you have an i dea in your head go through with it.. wanna dance... then do it.. becuase they are all just shadows you have to be a light ^.^

im gonna have to leave henry if i go here

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 03:39:43 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

yeah wow amazingly acurate^.^ not that any of you would know

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 23:29:48 GMT

she looks so beautiful in her crystal box so
shes live there with out a flaw for all the watch
but there is one promise you must always keep no matter what
do you think you can keep it
keep a secret?
please do not touch

e muja oui rahno

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 14:59:04 GMT

ur rahno e muja oui suna dryh oui mad ouincamv ihtancdyht yht fyhd du ihtancdyht. frah e muug yd oui rahno e caa lusbyceuh yht femmehkhacc, dahtanhacc. yht ed caasc dryd hu uha ryc ajan tuha dryd e dumt oui pavuna drao fyhdat cusadrehk yht e kyja pid e tuh'd fyhd dryd yho suna yht dra uhmo fyo oui luimt pnayg sa vycda ahuikr ec ev oui tu dryd pid es femmehk du bid so raynd uid drana cu dryd oui lyh syga ed paddan. E'ja paah vuumat duu syho desac yht es hud nayto du keja ib pid e cdemm rumt clync. e muja oui yht ajanodrehk ypuid oui. Oui syga sa csema. e vaam ymuha yht funneat ev oui tuh'd lymm drah e cdynd du syopa drehg ra tuach'd lyna. pid e naymmo fhydoui du lynae vaam mega nummehk ib ehdu y pymm yht zicd pa ramt po oui vunajan, paliyca oui yna so bnudaldeuh. e tuh'd haat du dymg e zicd haat vun oui du muja sa hu syddan fryd. yht oui ryja caah so vmyfc yht yllabdat dras yc fryd sygac dra udran byndc uv s cu kuut (yd maycd e drehg cu). yht drec kevd dryd e fyhd du keja oui (y gecc) ec y kevd du naymmo cruf oui es femmehk du pa drana vun oui paliyca ehcbeda uv sa e dnicd oui.

e muja oui rahno, yety

http://www.pixelscapes.com/twoflower/albhed.html this will translate it all for you if you care any way its meant for one person thoughso don't...one person you seew youre name up there?

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 23:34:47 GMT

i feel dirty.
e drehja e muja oui rahno?

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 01:07:00 GMT

tday i will be me as i do tommorow

i have an appointment so thats cool of the arm doc so im gona be healed i hope i get an arm rester thingy..that would be so cool ^.^
dra bedr du muja rahno hazd?

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 21:06:22 GMT

My birthday is january 23. so if you love me..or just know me.. maybe 9.9 you can get me somin'?huh..? pleeeeeease.. im so nice to people and every one slacked on my x-mas presents so hey another chance^.^...lol..kidding kidding you don't have to get me a thing ^.^ i love you guys anyways..

im gonna be 15!!!!!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 20:32:17 GMT

there are wars all over the place
so many die but she does not cry for them
or for THEM
she cries becuase she knows what will become of her soon enough.
nothing seems worth it any more
she will cry once more

she needs to die

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 03:06:58 GMT

this girl needs to die
come back
she wants to be a diffrent person
what she really wants is a new body , this girl should die.
her hair shold be washed in her blood and the blood of the old and the new
there is a war one stronger than any before
she needs to, wants to die

hello little blade youre gonna solve this girls problem today

bunnies go to scholastics

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 00:07:37 GMT

there is no love in this cold heart
there was never love in this family
this girl wants an embrace
she feels his breathe on her neck. no don't please....
this house contains no love
this heart can never give more thatn blood
he hold her, an arm around her waist and another holding her head...
she walk this citty that gives no warmth
this girl is grey
she walks with no love too empty to tell
he pulls her face closer to his....
she wants this "love" to come a gift only one can give
there is no love ahead
no love was left behind
no love lost
in a final moment he brings his lips closer to hers eyes close its is bliss

i don't feel like talking about winter break

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 00:31:50 GMT

first day of school a time of plenty. yess i was sleeping in montesisnos and navarros. but it does gebetter flashing my new bling to all the people they give pope sized claps but i won't complain. same goes for the teacher brains they just let it go let every thing go. not all of them some are just scared?. i don't think so. any who i can in to not remember my locker number i sat there thought a little.......

i got it..
but it took me a while its was horrific. it contais one or more of the following items: sweater, boks, old lunches, papers, pases, toold boxy, picture with the edges bent a couple completly crumpled.foam crap and a tennis bal.. a bokk too im not sure which one though. any way stupid shit i look at alll the clean ones with jealousy.

Gave and recieved a book, nice shoes. ::aids fav. colour is green:: project finished.. its nice.. the one with flashes of your ugly faces. and i felt so smart but dumb at the same time.. is that possible.. whats it called?..
HENRY just tell her whats the worse that can happen..itxs better to regret something you did do than something you didn't.

im s tiered fo those fur boots... wise up people its fucking miami... stupid eskimos

shes come out of her shell only to be better than before

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 19:13:25 GMT

grounded isn't so good a thing you know.. all you rebelious kids yeah you look tough.. the only thing bigger than your hair is your ego.. but you see what it all boils down to.

winter beak has never smelled nicer. i'll be in puerto rico while the rest of the losers have to stay home... thats right south for the winter.. not that im waiting it out there. though i wish i could. this girl is going places they all said. youre all going to hell. ha ha ha!! don't get to excited about how right you or about how great you are...i don't do uniforms like you do.

if you don't like me then i probabley won't like you. don't feel bad about it. and you are the anti frood in any other name. it never matterd to you the rightousness that you have in your hand you dont have to be a lazy ass with no future. im not. but its the uniform that makes you a clone and a loser. suceed...suckseed? thats what you have to do youre not all losers that HAVE to just smoke and get high all the time becuase if i give you a lable it wont sound like you can beworth palpable value.

a last note.... instead of trying to be better than me... you should try to unite with me.. were all here for the same reason, lets unite instead of compete.

MERRY CHRISTMASS AND TO MAX.. HAPPY HAUNACK..? CHANICKA..? HANUAKA..?

MY SUICIDE SONG

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 02:01:28 GMT

i will create a song thats beats will revearse the initial brain waves that give you instincts of servival and make it so that they start killing them selves..

lets stars with the basic beat.....

..... .. . . . . ..... . .. .. . . . .

okay then now that the beat havse been established we nedd a tempo..... fast furious..angry and catchy so you besinging the song and kill your self..

one and two and three and four and.....

aww im bored al ready.. i think that'll do fro now^.^

yes munson you did surprise me^.^ but not scared^.^..i was.. uncomfertable..?

how are we doing miss sarah..? what a lovely name what a lovely thoart. soft flesh

i used to think the tree thing in NY was winter..but no...its Christmas...thats kinda mean...:( all the non caths have to see it every day as they walk by the fucking tree.. hmm..

the first day of many to come

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 02:37:34 GMT

i thnk i talk much too much at much to fast of a rate... for now till..? i'll talk slower so that everyone who is not coprehending me can finally see that i have sense.

you can't say your a preist and never go too church right?.. yeah i know have fundamental behind what your saying dumbasses. you can't want peace by making war...only that would go under you can't make chicken soup out oif chicken poo...i like that one. more over i read an article about the jobs and how they're doing....here are the results....

an estimated 1.7 million jobs will become available evry year over the next 10 years. not bad.

ther are high tax cuts for the wealthy.... any tax cuts are good...except...thats frivoulous since all the companies getting tax cuts just spend it investing in over sea jobs which means its for crap

war creates more jobs.. so we're doing something wrong.....hmm...

and a final ode to my dead birdy, sam, who died saturday. he was a good bird who at one time, was the father of an egg. and though the egg never was born to be a baby birdy, it was still a rather nice egg. and he was blue an nice clean blue. and i'll miuss the way he showeed in his little bath he was so cute.. sammy boy, i'll never forget you.

if there is a condom that can fit in a rectangular package there is still a love

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 01:09:42 GMT

im PMS in again, so let the emo aida come!!!
imstarting this really nice peice and yes^.^ i thought of it all by my self^.^ its of a girl sleeping/ uncouncious on a carpeted floor who is bald but she has that fuzz that bald people have. and some patches of hair but its short and cut off... and her hair is all over the floor and laying abocve her is a man that is also bald and his hair is some were else.. and he has tape around his head holding the girls hair to his head and he's happy and smiling with the sissers and well yeah i like it and the back grounf is a wall a door and a diploma.

im proud

seems like there will be no end to the destructive power of the ones you call the shes..

sarah walked away

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:46:51 GMT

thank you maxy ^.^ for your lap this after noon it was rather cozy.. expect you kept picking at me XD

the gratest movie in the world THE IRON GIANt has got to be the most "political" cartoon ive seen for a while now........it has to do with the fdact that americans don't like other people... and fuck yeah we don't except we want you to pick up the trash fro us... so yeah you'll get citizenship...^.^ ha ha!

new kid!!!! his name is gabriel^.^ wow thats great becuase i really have no clue who the hell he is but thats okay becuase he my "online buddy" thats okay than ^.^

barbie isn't such a bad thing.. really... i mean i LOVE those barbie movies barbie and swan lake, the princess and the pauper, barbie as the nut cracker. i love them all!! and FUCK YEAH! there ain't no shame in enjoying a good story line of a strong independant woman fighting her way........but thats too much into one useless subject she never did me any good...

ive never been happier with the fall of an enemy^.^

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 16:18:42 GMT

today i waste my life away in the reces of cyber space. so much to explore... no one who will take care of the lovely me, except for maybe my grandmother.. so close and yet so far..im less than a block away from a book store.. but alas..i cannot go becuase she can't walk long distances.. maybe i'll convince her but things are frowning upon aida today. a lovely thing happend yesterday.. w00t!! dougy called.. he calls every other day but yes this was special..im not sure why.

and iada loves you too ^.^ every little bunny that has ever desended down upon aida and all her planets that she rules over so fondly..or is at least a citizen of.. all of those small things that seemed to vanish from hr mind in a time of..uselessness?...they all cam back last night they DO exist!! fine don't fucking beleive me!!! its true ya know and i think i'll lay here with my friends once again and never feel lonely agian. the enemy is dead!! the enemy is dead!! and sure enough i'll have to fnd some other to put my weapons of mass destruction too.. but i think we'll need allies sir..oh i have them and they are good......

and wouldn't you know!! its the same day the empire falls..
the dorlomps wantyed to launch an attack on evagon becuase the medicine that they so loved and needed had actually been bad for themdo to the fact that well corrupt officials tried to mass produce the plant in all regions..... the only other region apart from the oasis, was the mountains. obviously that is not the natural enviorment of the kawaya-wayja flower. this suden change in scenery caused the plants to experience toxic shock syndrom.. this made them mutate in to a form of the plant that could have had the same effect of the plants medicine from the oasis but.. the technique wiould have to be diffrent.. unfortunatly they didn't know and the dorlomps got a shiopment of bad medicine that ultimately cut their population...they needed not only revenge but they also had to kill the crops to prevent any more harm...and attack was taged agianst the high emperor in the city of tomapopo. unfortunatly that ship was seised by pirates and the only attack that followed through was the one on the mountains....

my robot bunny loves you^o^

the world is a prude

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 04:13:54 GMT

every thing you learn is school is a lie!!!! all they really want you to do is be a prude and not have sex. for example.. math.. they make you create a bank acouynt and give you jobs for an assignment.. but then they give you children.. don't have sex while your working at a pizza place guys.. no no actually i moved lawns. okay science is the obvious one were they tell you about STDS and HIV and what not.
language arts: they talk about two main things black people (no harm ment) and angsty teens that have sex and more sex and sometimes black people that have sex and how fucked up theyre lives became and poverty and such and such...

and then theres social studies.....well that ones a bit hard since the examples change year to year..so yeah mainly civics...or government.. they talk about women who are whores and got killed for it...hisstory too maybe ..not geograohy though....

im not saying sex at an early age is good for you.. just that scool really sucks.

oooh!! oh oh!
victor said hi!! *drools*